There is a persistent hope, an excitement of new beginnings and the hope of what Christ can achieve through me and Deborah Retreats.

I am unsettled in my current role, waiting for what is to come, knowing this will soon end but uncertain when.

My purpose and this calling has been embedded thoroughly into my spirit. I cannot walk away, I wish to serve the Lord with all my heart, soul and mind and strength.

This restlessness and uncomfortability, the Lord has shown me, is by design. It is part of the birthing, shedding old skin and walking into the new skin.

Like a pregnant woman nearly at term I am restless and unsettled, utterly committed to what will be birthed, my God and His plans occupies my thoughts all day.

I wait, and pray. I am so close to finally launching but the Lord says not yet, don’t push yet. He asks me to fast and wait and so I continue to plan and prepare for the birth, eagerly anticipating when the waters will break and the new life will be birthed.

The labour pains have been real and severe. But I believe we are in the final stage where the pains dull, all goes quiet and we hold our breathe and wait and pray for the delivery of Gods new hope and promise.

Lord, as Hannah took a vow in 1 Samuel I dedicate this baby wholly to you.

May you anoint and pour favour on this ministry and use it for your own purposes.

May you bless all who come to this ministry and grow it into what you will according to your purpose.

I will hold it loosely as you form and shape it and breathe life into it so that you are the ultimate and sovereign Lord of this ministry.

Lord help me to be courageous and bold, to take steps of faith and believe for all you wish to do with this ministry, in me and through me.

May I be a consecrated vessel that you can use for your will and purpose.

I love you Jesus

Amen

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